Thinking of you always dad, i don't think i can ever forgive you for leaving me so early. I know why you left so early. Only took me 16 years to finally piece it together. I'm now going through it myself and could really use a hug man. 😔 I have no idea how to be a man or a parent. Both things I imagine you could of taught me. I have nobody to turn to, nobody to just sit with, nobody to just conversate with. I just sit in a darkroom majority of days and pray my life away. I have no more drive left, I'm 26 and still nowhere in life. Last thing you'd of wanted is to witness a failure of a son. I couldn't even keep in contact with Ian or Angel for you, your other 2 children. I'm supposed to be the older brother? I failed at that too. James is doing really well though, you would be so proud of him im sure. I know I am. Worst part is James has accomplished everything he's done under the exact same circumstance as me, I just clearly was not cut out for this. Just feeling like a dead weight clinging onto my family if you want the truth dad. See you soon fella xx
This candle was first lit on the 23rd of December 2021 and will burn for 97 years 7 months and 17 days.